The journey has begun…
We have been slowly packing and boxing items up to move to Los Angeles. Because we’re downsizing (A LOT), we are putting much of our household items in storage. We are also preparing our house to be a vacation rental. There is SO MUCH to do.
Our target date to move is May 1. To turn in my 30-day notice to my employer, I need to do that within the next couple weeks. I’m so nervous about it. For the last 10 years of my life, I’ve relied on my employer as my sole source of income.
Although, there’s a part of me that is excited. To see what life has in store for me now that I’m somewhat…free.
I’m fortunate that I have a job waiting for me in Pasadena, which is about a 20-minute drive from Burbank. Adequate pay, great benefits, stable company. I should be thrilled.
But I’m not.
Securing this job does make the move easier psychologically. It was this job offer that clinched our decision to move because we know there is a guaranteed income waiting for me.
But I REALLY don’t want this job. I applied for it because it was an easy, guaranteed paycheck. Now I’m having second thoughts. I want to be living my life with my kids and husband, and be involved with my kids’ activities and endeavors. I want to be able to stay highly involved in Tyson’s acting career. I want to be able to home-school Ariel (since we doubt we’ll be able to afford preschool). I want to be able to focus more on my (and my family’s) health. I don’t want to be stressed out all the time, trying to fit in everything I need and want to do with no time.
My head is telling me to take the job. My heart is screaming from within, yelling, “No!” I don’t know what I’m going to do yet.
Of course, the dream is Tyson will book jobs to help with the household income; however, we don’t want to place that burden on him. Financially we’re planning as if he’ll never get any jobs. Expect the best, prepare for the worst.
I’m walking in faith now. Faith that everything will work out as it’s supposed to.
Even though we haven’t moved yet, this evolutionary journey has already started for me…